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Oh hello.
Only me, popping in to share some stitching, some cat pics and talk of F1.
I spend way too much time on my own or in the company of a teenager (my child, not a random teenager, he is referred to as the child or the spawn ). So this place is my connection to the grown ups, if there is any such thing.

Profile pic is me with my grey hair covering my face.
Header pic is a beach in Fife.

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I toot about my real life - chronic pain, fibro, arthritis, AuDHD, mental health.

I toot about my theatre trips, my cross stitch, my random outings.

I toot about F1, books I have read, the little bits of gaming I do.

I'm not a clever geek or nerd like the rest of you, I have no talents, brains or skills, I have nothing interesting to say.

This place is like my online diary and my connection to the world.

Many days I feel like I don't belong here (mastodon and the real world), but I absolutely love the accidental friends I have made along the way. They make my life a little better.

Thanks for letting us lesser beings exist here.


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Talk of mental health/suicide

Time to share all the stitchy stuff here...again.

This pattern is called Death by Cross Stitch, it is by Long Dog Samplers. Stitched on white 16ct aida fabric, using approx 370 metres of black DMC thread, 6 needles used. Final stitched area is - 55cm wide and 69cm high.
It took me 2 years to complete this, with lots of breaks.

This was a labour of love, a challenge and a reward to myself. Part of my journey.

A few years ago, I was in a really bad place, had made an attempt to take my own life. Then I fought for help, was told I didn't meet criteria for mental health support from the NHS. I managed to get counselling through the local carers centre which did help. After an argument with my GP, who screamed at me "What do you want me to do?", and my response of "your job, refer me to psychology", I got an appointment with a trainee psychologist for CBT. Now anyone who is autistic knows that CBT is an absolute load of shite - or it is for me anyway, my brain is suddenly going to be fixed with 6 sessions telling me to change how I think. Anyways, I told that trainee that as a reward for keeping myself alive, I was going to start "Death by Cross Stitch"....I think at that point, she realised that my sense of humour is a bit warped.

Counselling helped more than CBT. Cross stitch is what keeps me alive more than anything. I've been accused of being obsessed with stitching...and yes, I am, because it calms me and stops me disappearing on a downward spiral. Its a form of mindfulness for me, nothing else exists when I stitch and my brain calms down - which is really handy when ADHD is yelling at me to move, but my broken body is begging for me to sit down.

Studies have been done that show how beneficial crafting can be for mental health, and I fully agree with them. Death by Cross Stitch kept me living, and signing my death certificate (the final page in the pattern bundle) was a happy moment.

So yeah, thats the story behind why I tortured myself with Death by Cross Stitch. Pandemic will be my next Long Dog Sampler...once I start another dozen projects that is.

I'll keep stitching to keep myself alive.


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Breaking free from her original profile and starting new on here, she sneaks in the back door under the cover of darkness.

Oh, hello there, you found me...or did I find you?

It's just me, Fi. That really annoying woman from Scotland that talks way too much then shuts down because everything is overwhelming.

So yeah, about me - Fi, Scottish, carer for my child, cat lady. Disabled thanks to arthritis, fibromyalgia and some unknown thing thats under constant investigation until the docs decide whats going on - or if my body just hates me (it probably does, I don't blame it).

I spend most of my time looking after the cats (fat cat and skinny cat), the child and totally neglecting myself. When I'm not doing caring duties, I'm stitching, gaming or sleeping...although every now and then I venture outside into the real world and it reminds me I don't like it.

I'm mostly found online early morning, usually half dead from lunchtime. Although now and then I will lurk and randomly set up a new account just before bedtime...like now, so hi 😁


Tags: #introduction #disabled #gaming #crossstitch #cats #carer

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@stux Education is important, even for cats!


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Fi

I toot about my real life - chronic pain, fibro, arthritis, AuDHD, mental health.

I toot about my theatre trips, my cross stitch, my random outings.

I toot about F1, books I have read, the little bits of gaming I do.

I'm not a clever geek or nerd like the rest of you, I have no talents, brains or skills, I have nothing interesting to say.

This place is like my online diary and my connection to the world.

Many days I feel like I don't belong here (mastodon and the real world), but I absolutely love the accidental friends I have made along the way. They make my life a little better.

Thanks for letting us lesser beings exist here.


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Talk of mental health/suicide

Time to share all the stitchy stuff here...again.

This pattern is called Death by Cross Stitch, it is by Long Dog Samplers. Stitched on white 16ct aida fabric, using approx 370 metres of black DMC thread, 6 needles used. Final stitched area is - 55cm wide and 69cm high.
It took me 2 years to complete this, with lots of breaks.

This was a labour of love, a challenge and a reward to myself. Part of my journey.

A few years ago, I was in a really bad place, had made an attempt to take my own life. Then I fought for help, was told I didn't meet criteria for mental health support from the NHS. I managed to get counselling through the local carers centre which did help. After an argument with my GP, who screamed at me "What do you want me to do?", and my response of "your job, refer me to psychology", I got an appointment with a trainee psychologist for CBT. Now anyone who is autistic knows that CBT is an absolute load of shite - or it is for me anyway, my brain is suddenly going to be fixed with 6 sessions telling me to change how I think. Anyways, I told that trainee that as a reward for keeping myself alive, I was going to start "Death by Cross Stitch"....I think at that point, she realised that my sense of humour is a bit warped.

Counselling helped more than CBT. Cross stitch is what keeps me alive more than anything. I've been accused of being obsessed with stitching...and yes, I am, because it calms me and stops me disappearing on a downward spiral. Its a form of mindfulness for me, nothing else exists when I stitch and my brain calms down - which is really handy when ADHD is yelling at me to move, but my broken body is begging for me to sit down.

Studies have been done that show how beneficial crafting can be for mental health, and I fully agree with them. Death by Cross Stitch kept me living, and signing my death certificate (the final page in the pattern bundle) was a happy moment.

So yeah, thats the story behind why I tortured myself with Death by Cross Stitch. Pandemic will be my next Long Dog Sampler...once I start another dozen projects that is.

I'll keep stitching to keep myself alive.


Tags: #mentalhealth #crossstitch #autism #adhd #disabled

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Fi

Breaking free from her original profile and starting new on here, she sneaks in the back door under the cover of darkness.

Oh, hello there, you found me...or did I find you?

It's just me, Fi. That really annoying woman from Scotland that talks way too much then shuts down because everything is overwhelming.

So yeah, about me - Fi, Scottish, carer for my child, cat lady. Disabled thanks to arthritis, fibromyalgia and some unknown thing thats under constant investigation until the docs decide whats going on - or if my body just hates me (it probably does, I don't blame it).

I spend most of my time looking after the cats (fat cat and skinny cat), the child and totally neglecting myself. When I'm not doing caring duties, I'm stitching, gaming or sleeping...although every now and then I venture outside into the real world and it reminds me I don't like it.

I'm mostly found online early morning, usually half dead from lunchtime. Although now and then I will lurk and randomly set up a new account just before bedtime...like now, so hi 😁


Tags: #introduction #disabled #gaming #crossstitch #cats #carer

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